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Reaching decisions for the New Year…

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Well, with my ongoing depression and lack of motivation for damn near anything, I have decided that my latest novel, the sequel to The Road of Darkness, will be put on hold.

I have it nearly completed, but, I’m not enthusiastic about it.

So for the time being, I will be working on it when the mood strikes, and I will be blogging more instead, as well as keeping detailed daily journals and working on my little short stories. I may even toss you guys some smut snippets. Everyone loves the smut, right?

So, to all who have been anticipating The Path of Redemption, I am truly sorry for the set back. You can produce a good story if you are not feeling it. Thats my belief, anyway.

In the meantime, prepare yourselves for the antic of my cats, my kid, and the general tomfoolery I find myself on (completely on accident, mind you)

Thank you so much to all of you, and there are some of you I have a special rapport with… dont think this means I will stop pestering you!!!

Much love and squishes to you all, and a Good New Years to you…

~squishes more and drools a little~


And it's over…

As you can see from the photos above, this dreaded holiday called Christmas is finally over in my house.

 

The colorful zip tied gift was what I gave my daughter, among other things. But I always do one gift that she really has to work for. So, I used about 100 colorful zip ties to seal up a small card box with cash in it. Then I took that zip tied package and put it in a small gift box, taping it down so it didnt rattled or move. THEN…I placed that box into a bigger gift box and taped it down. AND THEN…I wrapped the big gift box, using wrapping paper and then sort of lamanating the entire thing with clear packing tape.

 

Yeah, she earned that cash. Cursing me the entire time. I LOVE IT!!!

 

Then you can see in the other photos the kittehs got their stockings full of toys. I just sort of tossed the toys on the floor in the middle of my office. I snapped a good pic of Jeffrey Jones, however BaxterMarie was having none of it. She just wanted to play with all the new shiny toys.

 

We ate, I drank. I’m still drinking now.

 

I wrote some, RP mostly.

 

I have some lovely friends who sent me holiday greetings, and my evil twin and I met for lunch earlier in the week…she gave me a Walking Dead key tag that has Daryl Dixons cross-bow hanging from it. ~SQUEEE~ Its perfect.

 

My daughter got me an Amazon gift card. I always ask for money or Amazon gift cards. I usually prefer picking out my own things.

 

I refered to this holiday as dreadful. I dont like this time of year. I get very, very depressed. And I feel nothing goes my way, and, in the true nature of that, NOTHING has gone my way this season. It only adds to the natural depression.

 

I sent my best friend an Amazon gift card. I imagine she’ll buy books. She’s a reader.

 

I slept off and on today. Between drinking. And I didnt get any sleep last night, so the alcohol induced sleepiness was helpful.

 

I’m at a stalling point in my novel. So, instead of putting added stresses on myself, and anxiety, I am stepping away from it until January. Then my editor is going to hate me. >_>

 

I want to get back into my old routine of setting up at the coffee shop and writing the day away. I was always most productive that way. Here at home I have way too many distractions.

 

So, hope you all had good holidays if you celebrate.

 

And thank you Patricia for giving me a kick in the pants. πŸ˜›

 

 


Another NaNo Down

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Another year of NaNoWriMo is down. I went well above my 50,000 goal for an nice 64,100 words.

Now, the hard part starts. The rewriting and editing. Blah.

I have to admit, I do not have the same enthusiasm for Book Two, tentatively titled The Path of Redemption, as I did for the first book.

I need cheerleaders, people. Patricia doesnt count. >_> She is biased. <3 you, girl!

I have a new laptop thanks to my mother, since old one is really old and stupid. I couldnt even get chrome to open half the time. Dont get me wrong, it was a great laptop, back when it was new, years and years ago. I wont get rid of it. It will make a handy spare, and well, right now, until my daughter gets a new processor for her PC, she is using my old laptop for her school work and watching Netflix and stuff. She just plugs the HDMI into her TV and uses her wireless mouse and keyboard. So, old laptop isnt going to waste.

These two cats are an unending source of comedy. Right at this moment, I am in the middle of a Matrix/Inception style of fight between them.

I had plan to travel, but they got cancelled, and I’m not going to New Orleans this Christmas, so I set up a cheesy little Christmas tree so the daughter is entertained. She is going to hate me when she gets her ‘gag gift’. Well, the gift inside is real, its just GETTING TO the gift that is the gag. Yes, I’m evil and demented and have all year to think of weird ways to make other peoples little moments in time pure hell.

Well, I’ve got a plate of hot wings and pub chips calling my name.

~love and squishes my darlings~


LAND SHARK!!!

So, I spoil my cats. Yes, I know, crazy cat lady thing. And even though technically Jeffrey is my daughters cats, he spends more time with me and I look at him as mine as well.

 

So, I indulged the new baby, BaxterMarie, and my grandbabykitty Jeffrey with new presents for each.

 

Behold…LAND SHARKS!!!

 

 

 

Now, at first, Jeffrey was content to just chill and sleep in his. BaxterMarie had other ideas, however. She kept pouncing on his and smooshing the side in. She was more interested in the fins and stuff.

 

But now, as you can see, she is sleeping snuggly warm in hers.

 

The two cats are getting closer day by day. It was a big break through when Jeffrey finally let BaxterMarie cuddle with him for a nap.

 

Today, for the first time, he groomed her. Oh, she didnt like it one bit, because Jeffrey seems to have a fascination with her little feets. He put her in a strangle hold and was like ‘look here, you lil snot, you must smell like me…I shall bathe you and you will like it!’. It was funny to watch.

 

They are currently over at my laptop desk in the chair fighting. I hear BaxterMarie give a little squeak every once in awhile and have to tell Jeffrey to be gentle. He backs off and minds me well. He’s a good boy.

 

And BaxterMarie is just a little darling. More often than not she is right here on my desk cuddled against me. And when not cuddling, she is playing with her multitude of toys. I had given the cats most of ChesterAnn’s (Fat Cat) toys. They each have their favorites.

 

On another note, its Thanksgiving here in the US and I dont care. I mean, not to be ugly or anything, but I’m just not a big holiday sort. I try to do something nice for Christmas only for the sake of my daughter,and this year, I am not bothering with the tree or anything. I got her a few gifts already, and that will be that.

 

Other news…I have a horrific cold. I know it was brought about by the weather. It was nice here, 80’s, then it dropped down into the 40’s, then it rained and got humid again, and now the temps are back up. The moisture in the air has probably been playing havoc with my lungs, and you all know I have COPD. Blah. So, I am extremely tired and trying to stay on top of things with cold meds and whatnot, while also not laying down much to keep the fluid from settling and building in my lungs. SO…TIRED.

 

NaNoWriMo is winding down. I have REALLY enjoyed being a Municipal Liaison. I will do it next year, and years to come, hopefully. My word counts have been good and steady and I’m still not finished with everything I want to write. I will admit I have been working my book like a movie is filmed…out of sequence. When I have a great idea for a particilar chapter, I work on it and perfect it, getting it down while its fresh in my head, then doing a completely different thing when it strikes me.

 

In the gaming world, things are as depressing as ever. No one to write with. And I tried to use one of my old characters to do a little train of thought type of thing on the situation of the ‘city’ and its inhabitants from her perspective. I was trolled majorly bad, or, well, my character was…it still doesnt make you feel worth a damn.

 

I got my new laptop in, thanks to my mommy. I unboxed it, but have yet to set it up and turn it on to get things how I want them. I am just too tired and have no drive.

 

I know the girls at the coffee shop will be glad to see me on a more regular basis once again. They are always asking why I dont come in to write anymore.

 

My old laptop isnt completely dead, its still good for some things. It lasted me a good while, and I put it through some abuse. Its just obsolete now. And even with a new battery, it wont hold a charge. It always has to be plugged in and that is a major inconvenience. Especially for using MSWord. It seems to drain my battery life incredibly fast.

 

But, that will be a thing of the past now, with the shiny new laptop. And I will take extra special care of it.

 

My next major purchase will be a new computer. Just the tower. I have a great monitor set-up, great keyboard and mouse, great webcam. And I can strip the blu-ray player from this tower to put in a new one. I am really good about making use of things.

 

I think, however, that this desktop is going to last me a good while longer. Everything on it works great. I just replaced the video card and put in a new hard drive, and added the max RAM, so its fast and smooth. Its just a little…ugly…lol. No, not really. It still looks sleek and all, you can just tell its an older model. I’ve had it over 6 years now.

 

Well, I’m just a chatty Cathy today, arent I? You’ve fallen asleep, havent you? If not, you are now lulled into a nice mood to take a nap. πŸ˜›

 

Happy Food Coma day to all you US folk.

 

~loves and squishes~

 


Busy Girl

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Well, lets see.

I’m still in that depressive icky state, however, I have been writing my ass off! I managed 3108 words today. Though, sadly, it wasn’t on my novel…lol. I was writing short stories. HEY!! Its writing!!!

The gaming life has been alright. Well, one of them. Though filled with sadness, both my characters on one site are flourishing, despite their recent trials and heartaches.

The other game just makes me want to smash bricks into peoples faces. Well, other characters, not their players.

I’m working on a story that reconnects two characters that haven’t interacted in years. Its a very nice piece, so far. I may just post it up here when its finished. I’m not sure if the player of the other character referenced in the story will add to the RP, but if she does, I’ll poke at her annoyingly, text her, FB her, and call her at ridiculous hours to get permission to post her writing to give you all the full story.

I watched Supernatural. Why do I torment myself like this? Why do those writers torment this fandom so?

Music…has anyone seen Interstellar? I didn’t really watch it, I was cooking or something, but I listened to it, and the music sucked me in more than the movie itself. The Original Score. Simply AMAZING!!! So of course I got it and downloaded it and now have selected tracks added to my writing playlists. If you haven’t had a listen, you should. The movie might be worth checking out too…lol.

Fat Cat has been acting rather strange lately. Well, stranger than usual. She doesn’t want to sleep in the bed with me, but she howls constantly for me when I do go to bed. She brings toys up the hall and leaves them for me. She just sounds…pitiful. She’s taken up a new perch as well. If I cant find her in the windows, or in her carrier, or plopped down right in my face…I find her curled up in the entertainment center on the stereo tuner. I know it puts out constant heat. She’s just been…weird. One thing hasn’t changed. If I leave for any reason, even just for an hour or two, she yells at me when I walk through the door. Nothing like being scolded by your cat. -.-

I’m going to a wedding next month, on the beach, if weather permits. I have to wear…A DRESS!!! ~dies~ Really, I bought something suitable. And thankfully its something I can wear again. Of course, I’ll be wearing a pair of spandex bike shorts underneath, as its short and flowy, and its ALWAYS my luck that a nice ocean breeze will flutter up and blow my dress up over my head. >_>

Well, that’s a bit of an update. Its a happy update, yes? I’m sure my murky mood will lift soon. Maybe its rolling in with the allergies? Who knows.

~squishes you all~


Achievement Unlocked!

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I DID THE THING!!!

You know, the THING…with the type-y and the words and the putting them together into a coherent structure?

Granted, it was only a bit over 600 words, but I feel SO much better. It was a short story, something to help restart that creative process using a prompt. I am still mopey and depressed, but this was a step in the right direction. I feel a bit accomplished now.

How shall I celebrate? I am going to chow down on this here BBQ plate I got from a local fundraiser, and then I just might get myself a bit of sleep O_O!!!


Motivation, where art thou?

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I feel full of fail.

~head desks~

I have had a severe lack of motivation to do ANYTHING productive the last month now. My blog posts are sporadic, I’m sluggish about responses, I’m not doing much reading, I’ve given up on those contests I was aiming for and I’m falling behind in Camp Nanowrimo.

I had started completely rewriting my first couple of chapters of Book Two before sending them to my editor, and ~poof~ All my drive and motivation fled me.

I feel apathetic and lethargic.

Very depressed, that is for certain. People who know me have even noticed. I have not even gone to the coffee shop to sit down and write all week.

What’s wrong with me? Where has my self confidence run off to? My motivation? My inner cheering section?

~sighs~

I will extend my apologies to anyone who’s emailed me and I haven’t responded yet, and I am TOTALLY behind on reading my favorite blogs.

Can anyone cheer me up? Set me back on track? Kick me in the ass?

On a side note, Fat Cat got her usual shave down and the groomer messed it up. She’s supposed to get a ‘Lion’ cut. They forgot to shave her tail down to a little poof at the end. So, Fat Cat looks like a fat blubbery pink uddered Squirrel. >:[


Striving for a new goal

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The Horror Writers Association

I want to be a member of The Horror Writers Association something fierce. I have for some time now. However, being self-published does not qualify me for membership. I have to have something published and paid for (at least $25.00) or have won a cash prize and been published. The more the better.

So, since none of that has happened as of yet, I have hunted down some prize and publication paying competitions. Both will be VERY difficult.

The first and most pressing is a competition that costs $16.00 per entry, with a word limit of 6000. You all know writing short pieces are a challenge to me. ~headdesks~ The deadline for all entries is April 30th. I have skimmed through some of my ‘started and abandoned’ stories and found a couple that could possibly be expanded upon, or in some cases, edited, revised and shortened. I’d like to enter as many as possible.

The second is sort of weird. There are cash prizes and publication, but there isn’t like, a panel of judges. You may only make one entry, between 10k-40k word count. That’s not a big deal for me, I have two stories already that just need an unneeded paragraph or so deleted and some wordiness snipping. What makes this contest weird is that is determined by how many people download your story, which means you have to practically spam your story’s link everywhere as much as you can, get other people to spam it, and really work your ass off to get people to download the story, even if they don’t like the genre or want to read it. However, liking the genre and interest in the story is helpful, because I’m assuming there is a discussion forum for it as another part of ‘winning’ is the literary value, which the site does not state how that is determined. The deadline for that contest is June 4th.

I need something publish, even if its only a little winning, like the $25.00 minimum, to join the Horror Writers Association. Winning something more would be great, especially since you have to pay yearly dues to the Association.

The Horror Writers Association also holds their own contests for their writers, which again, I would love to be able to enter.

I could join as a ‘supporting non-professional writer’, but NO! I AM a professional. Or trying to be. ~whineswhineswhines~

So there you have it.

Camp NaNoWriMo is in April, with a 500 word count per day limit, so maybe I can flesh out some 6000 words or less stories and get them entered into the first competition, provided I have the $16.00 each entry fee’s. I have a few stories that are less than 1000 words, but to me, thats a little too short to be captivating for this competition. ~pouts~ But what do I know? πŸ™

The Spotlights are pretty much on hold for a bit. No one has been wanting to step up for my little stage to be interviewed or showcase their work. If you DO happen to want to, then please email me…I will most definitely take the time to shine the lights on fellow authors AND bloggers. (zoeambler@zoeambler.com or zoe.ambler5@gmail.com – please place ‘Spotlight’ in the subject line)


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